Monday Evening

                                                              
                                                                   
                                           
Forgive me father, for I have sinned. It has been one week since I have last blogged.

With the exception of that poem...

I encountered the spirit of an old friend in a new person and got invited to come
out to study which was something I used to do with my old friend back in the day
The comfort level with that new person was just as cool of a breeze as times spent
with my old study partner, birds of a feather I guess. It seems that The Creator
will call you back to unfinishsed business. To finish business. Sometimes the
person calling is different, but the words will ring familiar because that's
how he talks to you. I am being spoken to by the most high and I am so open to
listening. After showing up, obeserving and being refamiliarized with points, facts
and history that helped me gain knowledge of self enough to want to remove myself
from the matrix and exist as a member of the resistance, I knew that this was the
place I needed to be for continued study. It felt good to have facts broken down,
learning origins behind the linguistics of scripture and how it applies/how to apply
it without being preached to or being made felt less of a person due to lack of
understanding. This is how I studied back in the day. Kicking knowledge with my peers
and elders back then gave me the strength to:

Change my name/break free.
Find purpose.
Be of service.
Re-define self.
Drink to replinish my thirst.


Refreshing.

I guess I'm back as a student.


If blue is the color of steadfast, then I pray for indigo to be sprinkled in your
basket... It's deeper hue ensures that balance will keep you.

                           - I thought of that while IM'ing a friend. She's not
                             having the bestest time these days...


My week has been one total blah, work, stuff, work and more stuff. Didn't get a
chance to work on my music and I took a break from rehabbing my commercial website.
I'm thinking of throwing a bone to a third party administrator so I can have all the
bells and whistles that a site like that is suposed to have without stressing self.
I did finally get a few audio tracks uploaded to the site so folks can hear as well
as see, but I got so much more work to do though.

I'm waiting to hear from my kinfolk down south to see exactly what's going down with
my memorial day weekend plans... I would like to not be in Chicago that weekend, and
I got folks taking time off from work so that they can make the trip with me...

So I see that a lot of us have decided to blog about our cousin's plight in Darfur. I
won't. I still plan on being of service in some way, shape or form by actually
visiting the continent. I am more concerened with what's going on up the block right
now, so sue me.

How are you coping with paying $3 a gallon? It's funny because no one is actually
complaining and I'm still trying to cope all up and through here. I'm blessed to
have a nice little new German joint that's rocking damn near 30mpg in the city and 35
when I'm riding towards the sticks, but y'all know that we got a holiday coming up and it
will hit $4 a gallon right? I guess since I took a 2nd job and got a bump in salary,
I'm straight so far... To be honest, I did have to break it down:

Car payment:                          $515
Auto Insurance:                      $119
Fuel Costs/Maintenance:      $400    (It's a little over $38 per fill, and I need about
                                                   +_____   a tank   and a half per week and an extra fill on
Totals:                                       $1034    the weekend puts me  right at 4. Hundred, that is.)
                       
                
               
                

I estimated that I spend about a thousand per month before I actually did the math,
it just felt like I was losing a grip on the privilidge to drive especially when I
added my other expenses like:

Rent:                                        $750
Utilities:                                 $100
Renter's Insurance:             $75
Food/Tolietries/Etc.:           $175
Cat Care:                                $40
Phone(s):                                $115
Web Accounts:                     $30
Wireless Broadband:          $65
Loan Repayment:               $86
                                                _____
Total life expenses:            $1436

Totals With the Auto:       $2470

I need to join a monastary, this is ridiculous! I need help, y'all...

I also need to borrow $5... If you got it, I do have a paypal account.