Seriously

I absolutely hate it when I speak to someone and find out that they haven't after all this time taken life seriously.

For a moment in time, I had a whole lot of people reading this lil' old blog just to see what or where I ended up next. A few folk emailed, IMed and such to tell me that they were vicariously living thru my exploits a couple and a few years back.

I didn't mind. I was focused on my life. I took what I did (and still do) and where/how/whom I positioned myself with very, very seriously. Something a long time ago told me that I was only going to get one chance to do things in this realm and that my time here wasn't going to be as long as others. I've held that thought and it has guided me to do some things that others perceive as cold or hurtful. I only have seen this as taking my life (emphasis on MINE) very seriously.

I have made bad decisions. I've trusted the wrong people sometimes. I've gone to places that weren't as welcoming to me and when I got a chance after realizing the situation, I quickly corrected them to the best of my ability. I want you to know something. When you try to make things out as if the entire universe revolves around you as its center and energy source remember that it isn't all about you.

You still have to live and thrive, and you definitely have to live with the decisions that you make. You will affect your immediate circle and in turn, it will affect you. You get out of life what you put in it, so where you put yourself, when and with who are important because what you do and don't do affects your life. You have to take this thing seriously if you're going to actually cash in your value.

I have some physical issues that will probably take me away from here sooner than the most of you. I am at peace and satisfied with where I am because I understand that I only have control over what I have control over. I'm cool with knowing that I'll probably struggle with a few things while my peers go to work, raise their children and go about life in the manner they see fit. I just wish that certain folk took things a bit more seriously though. Procrastination and hope only gets one so far. Waiting for opportunities only to never partake in them is a very foolish thing to do.

I hope that folks understand that not making time and passing time is wasting time.

So on that note, I'll probably be around here more often. I probably won't get too deep into politics and pop culture and that nonsense like I used to do because in these moments when I'm not managing my healing process or working either for fiduciary responsibilities or artistically, I'll be enjoying life. Whether that be traveling (yes, another road trip in on the schedule) or simply jumping out of airplanes like I used to do when I could fit in the uniform, I'll be knee deep in doing something other than sitting at home, wasting away tweeting of facebooking about the normal he-say/she-say.

Speaking of that, I posted a few normal, every day pics on my FB page just to remind myself that one can go thru a healing crisis and still get out of the infirmary to bring home the bacon, even though pork is a big no-no on the eat to live list. I was surprised in the normal response to my abnormal situation.

Oh yeah. I need to mention that I'm letting go of the nine to five in order to 'live the adventure' full time.

Well, that and heal. Healing is important. If I keep up at this pace, I'll heal up mighty fine.

Don't worry, I'll come around here often to let y'all know where I be.




Seriously. I will.



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