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The general, socio-political and very personal rantings and ravings of a hip hop head from the hood hustling for change... Of himself.

You all know me and are aware that I am unable to remain silent. At times to be silent is to lie. For silence can be interpreted as acquiescence.
—Miguel de Unamuno



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Thursday, July 29, 2010

Drinking Myself To Death

My name is Hassan, and I am still an alcoholic.

I secretly drank very heavily back in 2007 and I see that I'm matching an/or exceeding my output in 2010. There is no real reason for my drinking like back when I was in Houston, everything is calm and cool.

I'm still good with my eating discipline, I just have the urge to drink a certain amount of alcohol to provide stimulation or satiation. There is no trigger, I just love the taste, the feel and the vibe I get when I overdrink.

Drinking without meat flooding my colon is much more hazardous that a few years ago when I was a taco eating, burrito munching bloke.

I think I'm on my way to drinking myself to death.

I think it's the most perfect way for me to end all of this.

I don't want to stop drinking. I'm hedging my bets on leaving this realm in this manner.

I think its fitting. Hell, I'm drinking right now.

9 comments:

Ladynay said...

You're grown, you're smart, you're self aware...

so I will stay in my lane.

Bananas said...

Dude, lately I find myself mixing handguns and alcohol. - Oh Lawd, I’m 23 again. Only now I lack the discipline. Party on Garth!

The Brown Blogger said...

Party on Wayne!

Schwiiing!

Tafari said...

Acknowledgment is the 1st step to getting your shit right.

Last year, I had a wake up call & stopped going in on the libations like I had been.

Now Im able to pace myself & control myself from slipping into that zone.

Good luck bruh!

Ms Beauty Soul said...

I hope it doesn't end in that way for you, because that doesn't sound like the perfect way to go to me, but I'm sure you know that.

The Second Sixty-Eight said...

Man it's been six days! Put it down already!

Or give me some so I can catch up...

Pardon Me But... said...

You and me brotha...drinking to excess.
...I'd rather die a bloody and gruesome death...than death by liquor. Maybe if I drove I could get the driving while drunk thing...but since I walk, the most I could get would be some scaped knees from tripping over my stumbling feet.

Anonymous said...

Please love yourself and Take care of yourself.

fool said...

I know the exact feeling. I drink not because I need to, but because I WANT to. I love the taste and the feeling I get. Yet, like you, I feel I am drinking myself to death. And I agree... this is a good way to leave this world.