I really feel like things are about to go south for me real soon.
I've been thinking about death way too much these days. Ever since a close friend passed away and family members got sick, I can't seem to shake the specter of death. It consumes most of my free thinking time. I wish I didn't think so much, but I do and I don't know how to shake this one off.
My time is mostly spent brokering my free time around what will happen when I die. i know it will happen and I accept that. I just wish that I wouldn't obsess over it so damn much. It's almost like I want to die, like I'm waiting to see my life flash in front of me so I can have my eternal a-ha moment.
I'm in the meeting room alone, writing this.. thinking about death.
More later
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Naked And Unashamed
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Usually I think about death when someone close to me dies, wondering what it will be like when my time comes. Thought a tremendous amount about death during treatment, just way too much. Now I'm focusing on living a good, full life with some kind of purpose and believe me some days that is hard as hell.
Process the thoughts through so you can get to another phase.
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I blogged about this same topic on November 11. Check it out.
http://enrichedandfocused.blogspot.com/2009/11/focus-point-of-day-one-day-it-will.html
Hopefully you can access the link. I enjoy reading your blog, don't stop. I know you said you planned to soon.
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