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Culture, healing, politics and bullshit - Not necessarily in that order

The general, socio-political and very personal rantings and ravings of a hip hop head from the hood hustling for change... Of himself.

You all know me and are aware that I am unable to remain silent. At times to be silent is to lie. For silence can be interpreted as acquiescence.
—Miguel de Unamuno


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Thursday, April 20, 2006

And so...

We turn the page.

To all those that stopped by and showed love, I can't say it enough... Thank you.




Today is supposed to be my birthday and normally I don't celebrate it. I've been sitting around the house all day, bored and not wanting to come outside. I'm still thinking about Jordan. The police gave us good news, somewhat. There was video surveillance and there should be an arrest soon. I really hope so.

Jordan's funeral was last night. It was very heavy trying to deal with that. Everything went as well as expected. There were over 300 family and friends that came out to pay respects to this incredible young man. The turnout showed how much love was out there for him. I really felt good about that.

We went out drinking last night, and for the first time ever, I drove my car under the influence. I will never do that again. I put my life and others at stake. To hell with I made it home safely statements, I was wrong. I am amazed at how I was not in control of my decisionmaking process and now I see how that shit can kill.

I am sorry.

I have no excuses as why I did what I did. I am blessed that I got back to the burbs from the city in one piece.

I really appreciate the phone calls, texts and emails received in the past week. Thank you. I am surprised that some of my fellow bloggers communicate the way they do offline. My phone number was obtained and passed around like it was written on a bathroom wall. Whoever did that... Thanks. It was good to hear your voices, some for the first time. It has been hard to function this past week, but I watched a strong family become stronger. This is God's will and we must accept being in it.

I am turning the page, literally. I 'm finishing my lil ol' MySpace page, and am working again on my Blackisms page as well. The outlets for my outbursts will be back in due time. I have new focus because of what happened, I feel like I have purpose.

You'll see.

I'm going outside to play. You never know when or if the sun'll shine for your stank ass...

Peace and Blessings....

and thank you all.


Hassan

11 comments:

Nika Laqui said...

Thats real shit, "You never know when or if the sun'll shine for your stank ass..."

Happy Birthday oldie...*lol*

I'm glad I wasn't in that car either...you already drive crazy and then drunk too....

Oh my lord...glad you made it home safe.

Chubby Chocolate said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HASSAN. It's been a while since I've been here...I see I have some catching up to do.

Sorry for what happened. Now you need to heed your advice and celebrate the fact that you're alive... You told me that once. :-)

Chins up.

Kip said...

To Hassan,

Glad to see you back and glad to see you are stronger and your family have grown stronger from this tragic situation. Sometimes Hassan tragic situations force us to take a look at our lives and selves. It is said that he who doesn't cry (suffer) gains nothing. You have cried Hassan so much and someday you will reap your rewards for suffering mentally and emotionally.

The Stiltwalker said...

happy b day...

Anonymous said...

Happy BDAY---dang I wish I had ya number cuz I would have called your H20 dranking ass..lmao lmao

Glad u are doing ok with everything thats happened...

OH and if you drive under the influence again...my black ass is gonna pay you a visit in cHi-town...alright! Now don't get beside yaself homie!!!LOL

Anonymous said...

i'm late on the birthday. i'll continue to keep you in my thoughts.

NeenaLove said...

life is short enough as it is... don't get behind the wheel while drinking again. serious.

hugz,
neena

hope all is well.

Superstar Nic said...

I'm a little late, but I still want to say Happy, Happy Birthday and many more!!!

Rose said...

Happy Belated Birthday to you. Glad that you are okay after drinking and driving but I do understand the reason you did. You had just gone through something so painful but thankfully you nore anyone else were hurt.

I wished that I could have called you. I thought about you all week and wished that I could have reached out more.

toneec42 said...

A belated Happy Birthday, Hassan. Know that I am thinking of you, praying for you (and your family) and smiling at you.

P.S. Don't you EVER drink and drive again or so help me, I'll come show you why not!

Smootches!

Gallis said...

What is it with all these fellow Aries B'days I keep encountering? Heh! Good to hear from you Hassan. I was expecting that you wouldn't be blogging for a while with everything that had happened, so it's really great to "see" you again in the blogosphere. You are in my prayers.