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Culture, healing, politics and bullshit - Not necessarily in that order

The general, socio-political and very personal rantings and ravings of a hip hop head from the hood hustling for change... Of himself.

You all know me and are aware that I am unable to remain silent. At times to be silent is to lie. For silence can be interpreted as acquiescence.
—Miguel de Unamuno


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Friday, August 06, 2010

Expectations

You know what's funny? When you become the sheer hindarance to your own progression.




I am fine. I am enjoying myself and life as well. Don't let that last post motivate you to be concerned over lil old me OR start finger wagging. I have yet to have regret about any decision I've made.



Another thing... I have always told you the truth. Now I may not have always told you the indepth story bout thangs, but I have yet to lie to you, the dear reader.



So when my wife just blurted out that I 'told the world that I was an alcoholic' I had to correct her. First, I've covered my love affair with liquor many times here on this forum. So to quote myself, I specified that I was STILL an alcoholic.



Still.



That's not a lie.
I'm not judging. I also don't see the concern from the recent or distant past form anyone as well. Either you're with me or against me here, I don't plan on judging folks or giving the side eye on what they do. I expect the same treatment.



Expectations are bullshit though.



For the first time in my life I am having fun because I have finally learned not to expect anything from any one.



I can only believe in me.



Especially when people tell you that they 'just took life off for a while'.



And you just expect me to sit and take the weight?



Nope.



I am going to enjoy myself with no regard like I'm doing right about now.



Talk about crashing and burning.