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Culture, healing, politics and bullshit - Not necessarily in that order

The general, socio-political and very personal rantings and ravings of a hip hop head from the hood hustling for change... Of himself.

You all know me and are aware that I am unable to remain silent. At times to be silent is to lie. For silence can be interpreted as acquiescence.
—Miguel de Unamuno


Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Nothing Really Matters, Nothing Is Forever

I haven't been that  damn busy, I just haven't written anything.

I must admit that during my down time the last couple of weeks I've taken the characteristics of a lot of my friends and fam's emotional output to cover my own. It's been rough trying to rationalize the cold, hard fact that a doctor has put your life on a clock. Or have they?

It didn't take lone for me to realize that things can't go well for me if I sit and do nothing. It was the last week of March when I found out that I have chronic kidney disease and I had an idea about how things would go if I reacted instead of thinking about being proactive in how I want live the rest of my life. I knew that I would have to fight habit, naysayers and deal with emotions from other family members when I revealed it to them, but I didn't know how I would react to myself.

And then about 2 weeks ago, I reacted:

Not a whole lot matters.

Naw, y'all... Not like that! I meant nothing outside me, mine or our happiness matter.

As much of a news junkie I am. As much Hip Hop I consume. As much as I travel and work my little business thing, nothing is more important than my health.

That's it. Nothing really matters outside of you unless...

And that's that piece. Roll credits.

Sorry, I gotta try and get some sleep now. Gotta go work.

More about Dorothy Height, Arizona, what if the Tea Party were black, the national guard possibly holding down Chicago's streets and other stuff that really doesn't matter to me later. I gotta get back in the swing of blogging for purpose.

I just wanted to say hello.

I just figured I'd upload a video I shot while hanging on Frenchman Street in NOLA a few weeks ago around 1 am. Good times, good times. 

Oh, and I love most of y'all.


Big Mark 243 said...

Sometime Hassan, I will read an entry and am left at a loss. Not because I don't know what to say but if you haven't noticed, I will find SOMETHING to say, and what comes 'up and out' is just that.

Something that comes up and out.

I hear you about worrying with all the stuff in the media... if the Tea Party was this and is Arizona was that... hell, if my Aunt had balls, she'd have been my Uncle!!

Time to concentrate on the balls in the air that YOU have to juggle. Nothing wrong with letting a few drop because you prolly don't need them in the air anyway.

As hard (and I know that it is hard) to live in the moment and include the things you love the MOST and mean EVERYTHING to you will not only make you and those people you care about happy, but it will also work on those other 'things' outside of that sphere too.

Do your thing, bro.

ali said...

No, those doctors have not put you on a clock. Don't buy into that crap..they only know western, conventional medicine...which is limited at best.
You are totally capable of restoring or at the very least,slowing down certain processes extremely. You're a very intelligent man..once you've done your research and have gotten yourself a regimen of diet,exercise and change of lifestyle habits suited for YOU and YOUR CONDITION(I hate western, one size fits all medical treatments)...your body will respond in a positive way.
Remember, your body was designed to heal itself.
Glad you had a good time in NOLA, can't wait to see the video.

Lola Gets said...

Im very sorry to learn about your new condition. I sincerely hope that you do seek out treatments that offer you the best life possible.