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The general, socio-political and very personal rantings and ravings of a hip hop head from the hood hustling for change... Of himself.

You all know me and are aware that I am unable to remain silent. At times to be silent is to lie. For silence can be interpreted as acquiescence.
—Miguel de Unamuno


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Monday, April 14, 2008

Whatever It Takes

I am amazingly lazy when it comes to blogposts these days. I've gotten complacent and trust me when I say that this is a good thing. For most of my adult life I resisted a life like this when it is exactly what I both wanted and needed. The trust issues I had with myself and others manifested in me doing things and being in places that I either didn't want or like or wasn't supposed to be in the first damn place.

I can't get mad at myself like I want to because I would have never gotten here. I needed to do all of the things I needed to do in order to keep this timeline. I'm one of those folks that believe in the time-space continuum. All of the actions, events and emotions from back in the day are absolutely necessary for me to be right here, right now. Any variation would have me someplace else, miserable and wishing that I could get it over quickly.

And I know that some of y'all that stop thru here wish I was that miserable, lost non-person that used to rant and rave all over the place all unhappy and thangs wishing that my life could end just as quick as some of the BS that came thru and affected my life, but no. In this moment I cannot be that person because he is long dead. And rightfully so. He served no purpose whereas I... Well, you know about me these days.

The poetry is still being written, it's just not being shared with you.

Whatever it takes y'all.

Take no offense to song and written word not being put in this place, like years ago when I existed in a more blissfully ignorant state I have outlets other than here on Blogger for my outbursts. There is more to life than trying to squeeze the extremes of life here on the internet. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I have a life partner that I can trust with everything and just a little while ago I could look you in the eye and tell you that a person like that did not exist.

Well, they didn't.

I never knew that I'd find completion right under my nose. Not like that. Really. Seems right though because I've known her like forever but never thought that it could be her. I'm grateful that things in this universe move the way that they do.

Lazy blogposts.

Days without thinking about coming here even though my 85% of my job is done over the internet and I'm still writing and composing. I guess when I get the urge I will still share. Maybe not. I got a lot of White Sox games to attend.

And after last night, hanging out with my best friend could be defined either with my brother, my road dog or my wife. The synergy in the oneness of that statement meaning the same thing is life changing for me. A lot of us cannot make that happen for the life of us, but I know now I can.

Now, all we need to do is get our singles together for the strip club...

I'm kidding.

Unless my wife likes to go... Knowing where a stripper has been spoils the experience for me, so I normally chaperon those field trips, hang out in the back and not drink in attempts to keep my dogs from overspending, fighting and overindulging in the cheap adult beverages offered in those spots. I'll have to check and see is she wants to go. That'll be an adventure.

Just hold the 151 please.

Other than that, I'll keep up my incocnegro pace and enjoy being in this moment. I still know the web address, I'll be around.

8 comments:

Bananas said...

You know what Dude, I'm really happy seeing you on this positive vibe. It's refreshing. I'm glad you're happy, I'm gald you're grounded, and I'm glad that you are in love.

Keep on keepin' on - the blog will always be here.

aquababie said...

you're happy and content. that is the important thing. you'll pop up when we need you. right now you're doing one of the most important jobs in creation :)

Aly Cat 121 said...

That's cool bro. Ain't nothing like lazy days with the one you love the most. Sh*t I ain't mad. Don't be surprised when 6 black folks from "Da Lou" show up at your front door. LOL

Anonymous said...

Ummmmmm aly.....can y'all call first? LOL

The Second Sixty-Eight said...

"And I know that some of y'all that stop thru here wish I was that miserable, lost non-person..."

Nah bruh. I don't think so. I like you just fine the way you are.

And to the Mrs. I will try to remember to call first. But don't blame me if it is from a cell phone outside the front door...

Chubby Chocolate said...

What's up?!! Been a while, but good to read that you're doing well.

nikki said...

frankly, i'm glad i aren't that miserable person from the past. i wanna hear more from the "blissfully happy dude"

Aly Cat 121 said...

@ Mrs. Diva - girl I'ma be calling you saying the DOD are hungry and send'em right on in the kitchen with you. *chuckle*