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The general, socio-political and very personal rantings and ravings of a hip hop head from the hood hustling for change... Of himself.

You all know me and are aware that I am unable to remain silent. At times to be silent is to lie. For silence can be interpreted as acquiescence.
—Miguel de Unamuno


Thursday, July 29, 2010

Drinking Myself To Death

My name is Hassan, and I am still an alcoholic.

I secretly drank very heavily back in 2007 and I see that I'm matching an/or exceeding my output in 2010. There is no real reason for my drinking like back when I was in Houston, everything is calm and cool.

I'm still good with my eating discipline, I just have the urge to drink a certain amount of alcohol to provide stimulation or satiation. There is no trigger, I just love the taste, the feel and the vibe I get when I overdrink.

Drinking without meat flooding my colon is much more hazardous that a few years ago when I was a taco eating, burrito munching bloke.

I think I'm on my way to drinking myself to death.

I think it's the most perfect way for me to end all of this.

I don't want to stop drinking. I'm hedging my bets on leaving this realm in this manner.

I think its fitting. Hell, I'm drinking right now.


Ladynay said...

You're grown, you're smart, you're self aware...

so I will stay in my lane.

Bananas said...

Dude, lately I find myself mixing handguns and alcohol. - Oh Lawd, I’m 23 again. Only now I lack the discipline. Party on Garth!

The Brown Blogger said...

Party on Wayne!


Tafari said...

Acknowledgment is the 1st step to getting your shit right.

Last year, I had a wake up call & stopped going in on the libations like I had been.

Now Im able to pace myself & control myself from slipping into that zone.

Good luck bruh!

Ms Beauty Soul said...

I hope it doesn't end in that way for you, because that doesn't sound like the perfect way to go to me, but I'm sure you know that.

The Second Sixty-Eight said...

Man it's been six days! Put it down already!

Or give me some so I can catch up...

Pardon Me But... said...

You and me brotha...drinking to excess.
...I'd rather die a bloody and gruesome death...than death by liquor. Maybe if I drove I could get the driving while drunk thing...but since I walk, the most I could get would be some scaped knees from tripping over my stumbling feet.

Anonymous said...

Please love yourself and Take care of yourself.

fool said...

I know the exact feeling. I drink not because I need to, but because I WANT to. I love the taste and the feeling I get. Yet, like you, I feel I am drinking myself to death. And I agree... this is a good way to leave this world.